The Path Ahead

The last year or so has been a roller-coaster ride in the strangest way for me. On the surface things are running smoothly and to the outsider I live an amazingly blessed life! (Which, incidently, I don't dispute!)
However, I don't think you ever describe me as a simplistic soul...if there's some potential for things to be complex and full of hidden depths you'll find it in relation to me. I am fortunate that I have enough self knowledge to understand this an usually life doesn't suffer as a result!
But this year has highlighted the areas that I have been studiously ignoring!

I have been receiving Theta Healing (from the wonderful Susan @ Theta Healing Scotland) and boy has that blown so doors off!
So, now I am at point where I can't deny anymore the path before me...BUT... I am resisting it with every fiber of my being.
Rationally, I see that there is no point in denying, I understand the consequences of such behaviour. Emotionally, I have the courage for the huge changes that the path ahead will bring. Practically, I have or am working on the skills...
But there is a silly side of me stamping my foot, saying I don't want to do this!!!!

I hope it will pass...I'm sure it will...but it doesn't help at 3am....